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i am sorry i left this blog so dead for such a long time. sorry i didnt replied to the tags on my blog. thanks to my frens for leaving the tags. yup my driving licence cost at least 3 K already.

i am now attached to Davos Lifescience Pte Ltd for my IA. its company at biopolis doing research and production of tocotrienols, an ingredient in cosmetics and stuffs for anti aging and other anti cancer functions.

been very depressed recently. super..my heart seems like there is a dagger being plunged inside and it only kept digging into my heart instead of digging out.

i really wanted to hold on to our 3.5 yrs of rs..but when we realise that we are not for each other..we have to let go instead of dragging on.

u are my first love. thanks for all the sweetness we once had

i am very sad. we let things go slowly...minimise the pain. else i could suffer internal bleeding..

its our cool off period. we see how things go.

neverthelss...if things really finally end..we promised each other..we will still be the best of frens.
at least...wo men shi fen shou kuai le..a mutual one..its very ke xi..but at least..its a frenly one.

i still treasure u...

jia you blurblur

so long ever since i blogged. guess everyone is quite sian diao liao. I couldnt see my tag board..dunno what happened to it but if you all wan to post comments, pls post it below my post. :-)
so many things happened in this semester
a few things to update those who are lost..yup i got my driving licence :-) thanks to those who supported me all along. And i passed my violin grade 2 with distinction. thanks to those who helped to listen to my choice pieces and also my violin tutor who added so many extra lessons. thanks to my fren who accompanied me after the exam.
what a sad semester...ya. so busy...hai and i am sorry to those who i neglected...joanne, sorry i wasnt there for u when u were down..fongmay, so long since i chat with u..i miss u a lot a lot..hai sorry ok frens..love u all.
i dunno who is reading my blog but if u all happen to be my uni classmates, u all should know sth happen between me and my fren.
To my fren,
i am really happy that u found such a wonderful gf. thank you for the past two years. u have been such a great person to be with. i will not forget the good things that u have shared with me. the help u have offered me during my uni years. though i still feel sad that our frenship is sort of drifting apart, i still wish for the best in everything u do. all the best k! :-)

i really cant wait for this sem to be over. i wan to go to the beach again. i wan to write a message in a bottle and throw it into the sea. let the past vanish with the sea. let there be a new start to my life. i need to regain the confidence i once had.
someone asked what i aim to be in my life..for me...i just aim to finish my uni life and work..get grade 8 in violin and maybe go back to study music. afterall, i realise my passion is still with the arts. wish me all the best k :-)
as the exams approach, take care frens and remember if u feel u need to talk to someone, u can call me

i better blog

hehe sorry for the ultra long break...
hmmmm can't believe it the hols seems to be ending soon and i have yet to accomplish so many things that i wanted to do before the holidays...
hols usually mean work for me..yup sitll working at aljunied..hahah..work until sick recently..took mcs and had to rest at home cos feel weak and cannot move hahha
hol start off really sian...failed my driving again..for the third time..but i will just TRY again. hehe pls give me support k?? :-)

i enjoyed the uni class bbq..so fun..really relaxing after a long day at work.thanks to andrew for pointing out one major mistake in my choice piece..and also the food that was being cooked and handed to me by mei and yy and my classmates. the brownie was great too..(contributed by jingwen) hehe

went for a trip with jo,fm and kenny, kianhock and kenny and patrick and junwen to desaru..the beach was great...it was fun "riding" the waves! and not forgeting swimming in the pool with the dunno what some monitor lizard...hahaha...and also the 16 ringgit nasi lemak..yay

just had violin exam. tester was good. kept smiling. even opened door for me. hai but i screwed the Bb major appreggio again and side reading a bit screwed (cause was reading halfway suddenly very gong paused a while like 2 seconds..must be the cough medicine la)and the aural screwed cos supposed to be 6/8 time i say 3/4...hahahah...should be can pass la..the tester seemed to enjoy my choice pieces. i should be taking grade 4 next year. will jia you.

hai i havent really go shopping yet leh. so many things i wish to buy but held back cos i think i really ought to save up.

was suffering from papilla conjuntivities and is still suffering now..its not sight threatening. hmmm...dunno the exact cause yet but wont be wearing contact lens these few weeks. quite sad but never mind. hahaha..but contact lens wearer ..if u are wearing monthly disposable..do use the protein removal tablet..the solution is not stroong enough ...( the optician say i allergic to too much protein deposits)

oh and now food.....a few must eat for u all are
1) sapporo ramen at gallery hotel...(ramen is very tasty and chewy but beware of the ultra salty miso soup)
2) jap ice cream at bugis ( CHEWY and yummy)

i really miss eating gelare at east coast park and eatng oreo cheesecake. argh...can someone go with me?

i stumbled upon one ruby lin's website. www.sunshineruby.com..
was looking at her pics and salivating until my mother came in and thought i am a lesbian or something. hahaha...

shall stop here for the moment will blog again....hehe :-)

happy day

finally this miss blurblur gonna write sth happy...

felt happy that i won the instrumentals quiz on symphony 92.4 fm. the question was to guess the instrument after a few hints given on air. some hints were...
1) this instrument is used to keep timing in marches
2) used to create the sound of thunder

and i cant remember the last clue. hee...wont reveal the ans..you all think think ba.. :-) hee

and the next happy thing is my electric violin finally arrived...Ok its rather heavy as compared to the classical one. but i really feel great playing it...its very quiet.. and just discovered that it can be connected to the computer and hence record my playing...oooo haha...shall record some songs for my frens liao.. hehehe..hope u all dun mind my lousy playing..

each day is a new and happy day...wont forget what u shared with me mei :-)

today's driving lesson was good..good due to the fact that i didnt touch driving since my last failed exam.,,which is like in december..haha..the instructor totally trust my driving until he fell asleep...so i was like keep driving and driving and driving until i almost going out of the ssdc route that i reminded the instructor whether to turn left or right hahahah...then he will wake up blur blur and say ya ya turn turn..hahaha..the circuit was fine..no knocking down of poles. dunno why felt super confident today...maybe its the power of dressing up and putting on makeup ( wa me is a vain girl cos my mother was v vain also..so dun blame me) sometimes i just have the urge to put on makeup..ahaha..(anyone wants some tip...me grad from ZA beauty sch one k ...hahah) but i just feel great after touching up my face once in a while. once i wore makeup to violin lesson and the tutor was shocked how come i can suddenly play very well..i also shocked...maybe the confidence loh. sometimes i wish i can be a freelance makeup artist for artistes..

some brands and stuffs to recommend
1) ZA cutie curl mascara or fiberwig mascara
2) inouvi blush
3) vichy foundation
4) loreal lip gloss..
5) kanebo testimo

all these brands are quite good ..used them before and find them quite good hahaa...

haha..so happy..went to this cafe with my jc class people..nice brownies..yum yum..thanks joanne for the lovely purse and handphone chain and chocolates.. and i guess u really know me v well..even can see that i was faking happy during the outing..thanks a lot jo...i am feeling a lot a lot better and happier :-)

thanks to my frens who showed me all the concern and pei me to go out shop and see things to cheer up. so happy !
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not that i wan to write a sad post again....i mean ya i know i should write more happy post but in general i am a sad person..thats why i need my mp3 to be always by my side..need to listen to some songs and bury in some rubbish thoughts and then tear and then everything will be fine again...u can say i am mad but well thats me...

hai...things just seems to be heading the wrong way...

it was a great swim last night...raining,...the water was warm...the pool was relatively empty...i was crying as i swim...tears collected on my goggles....its rather difficult to swim and cry at the same time...tried that last night...its rather breathless...and the chest really hurts...

my thumb hurts as i started my work today. it cracked...and bled a bit...must be those paper work..actually such cracking really means nothing...just a small weird skin problem i have yet to identify but just dunno why i felt sad about it...the thumb screams..."why have u neglected me all these years.....didn't u realised that i changed since sec sch after the lab sessions...why did u choose to ignore me...noW i am cracking up...cracking up..." sorry thumb

watched the korean show that 18 year old wife one....

the guy asked his wife to look into the telescope..." the telescope is powerful...allows u too see the faraway stars...see so many wonderful things...yet it has a flaw..it cannot see what is near it...its like me...i am successful in things...see far..yet i failed to see the wife who is right beside me all the time...." so sweet,.....

compilation

let me compile my thoughts for the past two weeks in this entry

been so busy these past two weeks due to reports, assignments and tests. but i think even no matter hoW busy one is, health should be placed on the first priority. so please remember to drink more water. been quite sian that i went to the doc twice for the past two weeks. first due to.....ok its disgusting i shall not say...second due to my right hand...some weird unknown infections and my thumb is not v nice looking due to that...hope will recover soon :-)

i think i saw one student from punggol primary sch while at hougang mall today after seeing the doctor...she was whispering to her mother and then she like very paiseh her brother was blocking me so that i cannot choose the pens. then the mother quickly dragged the brother away. so funny...haha...actually it feels nice that kids still sort of "respect" their teachers.
but it also means i had better behave myself in public..hahaha

quite happy that i am going back to my old workplace after exams. :-) so happy they are willling to reemploy me..though i made a lot of mistakes they were still very forgiving and always treat me during lunch. shall try to do a better job...but sorry frens i might not have the luxury to go out one whole weekday but still there's the weekends! :-)

a few things i plan to do after exams
(1) music exchange with cheryl, andrew, joanne and fongmay :-)
(2)eat at this ramen restaurtant at gallery hotel..the ramen supposedly feels like rubber band
(3)go to the beach and bring a palette and paint the scenery
(4)shop one whole day at orchard ( yay some of my dearest frens agreed to pei me liao..thanks :-))
(5)short overseas trip prob to malaysia cos i dun have money yet
(6)go to botanics gargen and look at the lotus flower pond...actually my fav flower is the lotus flower..
(7) go to the cat shop near east coast where the cats are real fat and pussy like
so many hehe...

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had a very good swim with mei in nus swimming pool today after the paper. i think exercise is something that one should not forgo no matter how busy one is. so frens must remember to exercise k? build up resistance to study better for the exams!

hmmm...i really cant wait for exams to be over liao. need to practise more for my violin. still got some problems with control of the bow. keeps letting the hair touch the body. and the sound not nice whenever the note is long. haha

just finished watching purple love. watch until cry.

i feel sorry for mingjun. she sacrificed so much for luxi. taking care of him when he was in a coma. but luxi still loves yiqiao. though luxi said he wants to be with mingjun forever, she knows that his heart is with yiqiao.hai..she told him ," why cant u say the truth? why hide ur feelings? just tell yiqiao that u still love her? i did not hide my feelings for u. so u should do the same...i did everything with no regrets..." i think she is really wei da. but i doubt such pple exists in this world now.

i cry cos i feel sad for yiqiao. i feel that no one will be able to forget one's first love easily. everthing is just sweet and touching. no matter how dull a relationship can become, one will never be able to forget those first times. she could not forget luxi. she is just so poor thing. she was to marry luxi. then he went to america to pursue his studies to help save yiqiao's amor de capa(i dunno how to spell but it's just a grape vineyard) then he ended up in a coma after falling at a construction site. mingjun was beside him all the while. gave up job. everything. for luxi. hai...and yiqiao was kept in the dark..so sad argh so sad....:-(

now luxi wants to marry mingjun cos he felt he owe her too much. hai but is this fair for yiqiao, for mingjun....he is just a guy who cannot face his own feelings...